we finally met again.
i have no idea what i want to write, which part of the day i want to share, but all i know is that i need to write it down in case i ever forget.
i still had my doubts an hour before you came. but thankfully my expectations wasn't met, because i expected you to bail again today.
i sent you my location but then i forgot to give you the house number, so you had to reverse the car to get to my doorstep. i went in and it was hella awkward. we ate pork ribs with the soup and i ordered soya milk but it was out of stock so i got teh tarik, which has hair in it. you wanted to remove it with your chopsticks but i asked the waitress to switch it. we talked about your niece, who's actually one of the people i know in college, i asked you about your days in your hometown and i talk about mine. you drank tea and you told me you like dark tea, and we both can't handle coffee because it would keep us awake till 2 in the morning. we split the bill and you paid with your credit card. we passed the pool on the way to the ice cream shop and you tell me how you're always insecure because your friends are athletes. and i should've asked you to go to the pool with me. we went to the ice cream place and you had to park parallel, and you fell in love with the brown sugar ice cream while i had my earl grey and green tea ice cream. you kept fiddling with your laptop bag, because you're probably nervous just like me. i like how you always smile. we talked about the tournament, about the people who ran it and about how i hate my head of committee. i asked you about why you love your work and i told you about the fact that my dad expects me to continue his. we compare histories in different places and i saw you went to so many places. i wonder briefly how come can you be single when you've been to a lot of places and met with a lot of people. you told me you hate the politics in your college when you were there, and i told you about my campus. i talked about my dad's superstitions and how my name was given by a shaman or something. i told you that i like to debunk the superstitions using logic. we talked about out personalities using the MBTI, how mine always change because i'm turbulent and yours is always the same. your mom called you and you asked my permission to answer her phone. i like that, that you asked for my permission first to answer your friend's group chat. you told me about the guy you're trying to hijack and how your usually stingy friend suddenly can offer a high wage for the new guy. you asked me about the top 5 places to eat around the area because your mom wanted to come here. i asked why you suddenly changed the time because you said you can only meet me after 5, and you said you wanted to code in the morning, and i was elated because it means you made time for me instead. we took the ride around the area so i can show you the places. you handed me your phone so i can help you note down the places you want to take your family to, and i felt your callous palm, and even hours later i was still plagued by them. we eventually made our way back to my home and you stayed, chatted with me but you didn't make a move. i wanted to hug you but you don't look like you want to so we talk about your cats and their habits while rubbing my dog's head. i like that you're not scared of dogs and you actually want to play with her. you joked about being a supernatural guy and told me to move my fan to the other side of the room and i laughed. you said you gotta go and i walked you to your car. you wanted to high five me and i said i owed you a hug. i went in for the hug for 5 seconds because i don't want you to be uncomfortable even though i was craving for more. i ran back inside without looking back, hiding behind my door to see your car drove off.