09 01 2017

It feels weird, being able to suddenly smile while a thoight crosses my mind. In my head I always brace myself for the worst, just in case life starts throwing pebbles and river stones to me again. I’m wired to not get carried away by an emotion – to keep my hopes down, so I would be surprised that it went well rather than disappointed that it went badly. I keep smiling, remembering, being thankful, but a dark cloud always come chasing away that smile.