i finally came to the realization.
it took me a month
it took me nothing but a sudden self questioning;
"where did i went wrong?"
"what did i do?"
it was never the question of you;
"what did you think of my message?"
"how did that made you feel?"
because i know nothing of what goes in your head, never mind your heart.
so where did i went wrong?
i went wrong the minute i decided to be myself.
i kept on badgering questions after questions
i showed my card
i became myself
and that's where i went wrong
of course you wouldn't like me chasing after you
you're probably used to be the one chasing
as do every other guy in the planet
of course you didn't reply me for hours
you're probably annoyed of me
trying to keep the conversations alive
even when the signs of rot and death is there
of course you're not into me
you're probably shaking your head thinking
'damn why is this girl so desperate'
and i can't blame you
because i see all my flaws and my mistakes
and all i can do now
is hope that i learned my lesson
to not be myself anymore
since that's what's gotten myself into trouble
but then again
why am i making this about myself?
it's supposed to be about you
but i don't know what's going on in your head
and i know all to well what's going on in mine.